Well, despite the plug from Sub. Limbo, people aren't reading my bog. That's fine. People wentn't meant to read it outside my small initimate group.
If you're reading this, email me.... cbenoit@clear.net.nz
We've gone from having a wedding in Kenya to having it in Scotland, back to Kenya and then back toScotland. I've had very little sleep trying to organise things. I have yet to hear some good new about the legal stuff. I'm such an idiot for getting married. Now I have to wait for the divorce crap. NZ is a bit behind the times in family law. The whole two years separated feel like a lifetime and no they tell me there is going to month processing when they let me finally, after two years, file for a divorce. Bloody idiots.
posted by KiwiChick at 2:09 AM
CHA CHA CHA ... CHANGES......
My life is changing. Change seems to come quickly to me. At times I envy people who can stay in the same town they grew up in, stay in the same job they had for 20 years, stay with the same boyfriend they had since high school. It didn’t happen that way for me. Now I’m in my 30’s and it seems I was exactly right when I was 16, but it took another 16 or so years to realise it, for both of us to realise it.
The plan is to be with him. We have to deal with the bureaucratic laws and that angers us, but we’ll get through it all. It could be quite romantic. Like he said, it will mean what we want it to mean and we won’t be roped into anything we don’t believe in. His parents are excited. I’m so glad. I am. I’m really excited. It feels like a long awaited dream is coming true. I want this dream to come true and to settle into it.
This is probably going to be the biggest challenge I’ve ever faced. Another different country, a different language this time and another family. A completely different climate. Snow. Cold. Dark. I won't be able to work right away. Best I keep going with my language lessons.
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Just because I’m American doesn’t mean I’m religious. Let’s just get that straight from the outset. People automatically assume that I’m some bible bashing Christian from America. Well, you’re wrong. I agree with Jon when he writes:
"Religion is not something to be learned from priests or books. It is a process in the higher faculties of your mind, not repeating something somebody have (sic) told you will please your God."
I’d say that I’m spiritual, but not religious. I believe in the human spirit and the strengths it has to overcome and endure. I believe in the power of nature and that we are all on this planet at its mercy, and I believe in Love. Unconditional, unyeilding, beautiful, transparent, life changing, uplifting Love.
Buddhists seem to have some wonderful tools for coping in this world. The Tibetan people are excellent examples of quiet, peaceful survival in the face of amazingly horrible persecution. (Israel should take notes) I’m reading a book by the Dali Lama right now and it’s the best ‘self-help’ book I’ve ever opened. I don’t think I’ve ever read a ‘self-help’ book from cover to cover. I usually end up throwing them out. I threw ‘Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus’ across the room. But I really like this book. He talks about happiness like it’s a measurable thing. Everyone needs more happiness. More, some, any.
Thinking about my beautiful Scandiman makes me happy. Thinking about being with him on a daily basis makes me very happy. My fingers and toes are crossed that everything works out for us. Except for the little toes on my left foot because I banged them this morning on the exercycle. Whoever said exercise is good for you never met ME!!
posted by KiwiChick at 5:47 PM 